i havent fully gotten over the loss.. i still cant bliff i wasnt one of the 196.. im still dreaming dat i can b the 197th... grace ah grace... haii.. perhaps it's becos i havent wanted sumthing dat badly.. perhaps i nver really liked smth as much as dis...

exp gained anihow... i wished althea told mi dat earlier... it dint matter if i onli made it intially but lost it all eventually...
den again.. i dowan to give up jus liddat..

im really not sad u noe.. really really.. i jus feel like why did everything haf to go down the drain jus becos i choked at dat precise moment n everything went haywired..

anihows.. i decided to jus count mi blessings n the wonderful things i haf in my life... since now i haf lost it.. i prolly jus hafta foresee the bad things i wld encounter after having it...


i ran happily today... i felt like if the nite din fall.. i wldn mind cont'd running n running... esp. alone... i tried to go find him.. den i realised he left sch alr.. so =\


no life's definitely more den dis... i needa do things dat truly make mi happi n do things dat i truly love...
the emphasis is on the word TRULY....

dat was all i wanted in the fers place.. n i lost it all..
wad a loser mann